Because no matter what the fight was or why, I always loved you anyways.
You wouldn’t let go of my hand. Even when you were sleeping if I tried to pull away you stirred a bit and grabbed me harder.
I do my best to share you with the world. Always.
I don’t have the energy to hide it. My heart is so tired. So today I will not hide my grief, like I didn’t hide our love. I cry. It starts from nowhere, from nothing. There doesn’t have to be a reminder. No song. No scent. I have no positive spin on this. There is… Continue reading Complete darkness
Hey Krystal, What am I supposed to do? I need you so much right now. I need your hug so bad. I need you….. If there is an afterlife and you can see and hear what’s going on….. I am so lost. I’m drifting in a rage sea of emotions. The battles I fight mentally… Continue reading Adrift without you
I watch a clip from Jimmy Fallon. He was talking about his mom (who passed away). 1-2-3 squeeze to say I love you. My sister and I did that all the time. Just us. Not kids. Not anyone else. I never thought to do that with anyone else. Out of the blue, my youngest did… Continue reading 1-2-3
The medication didn’t work. I developed a rash over most of my body. I became more depressed. I couldn’t get out of bed. I didn’t want to kill myself. But I didn’t want to wake up the next morning. I felt like a guinea pig. Let’s up the meds. Let’s up the meds again. Hey… Continue reading Medication